Wordless Wednesday

Thank You List

1. My utmost gratitude goes to , of course, God for giving continuous blessings throughout my whole journey. Never did He put me in a situation that I wasnt able to handle and I was always "saved" in difficult situations and hard times. On top of that, He always answers my prayers in ways better than I asked for.

The Pink Panthers on that day.

2.Secondly, I owe my parents countless thank you(s), in fact, I owe it all to them. From the moment of making the decision to further studies in medicine till my last final paper, it was them who was there beside me all the time. From little things like adapting into lifestyle changes and dealing with rude Russians, to being scared of failing exams, we went through it together. I was happy, so were they, I was stressed, they were even more. That is why on my graduation day, I purposely set up a theme color for us as it is not only me who should be honored for the day, but them as well since they were a huge part of this whole 7 year journey. They deserved it well!

Dr. Sergeev - during surgery class

3. My teachers. There are so many of them to list from my pre-medical year to my 6th year. Each one of them has taught me everything they had, of course, in many different ways of theirs. Some I like, some I didn't really agree with their method, some I find being too strict, even some I was scared of, but at the end of the day, I realized that what I know today is the sum of their hard work and effort. Hence, they too, need to be thanked.

3. My relatives. Even though we meet only once a year, but my grandparents, my uncles/aunts, my cousins and the rest always make sure that they are up to date with my well being and studies. Before my finals begin they will pray for me, to make things easy for me, to make sure I'm healthy during that period and so that I can make it through with no hindrance. They wont be relieved till I tell them the good news that I passed, and starts to count days till I come home. This, has been going on since the first year till the last.

How it has always been, and always will

4. My Gurlz. People say sisters are best friends sent from heaven. In my case, they are my sisters sent from heaven. They are the reason that I can keep walking even I fell down to my lowest point. They've been there with me through thick and thin. They've been my reminder for every single thing, tiny or big. There wasn't any moment I felt alone, because they always will just pop up in front of me before I could even feel lonely. We had a great time during our days in Kursk and I'm thankful that it is with these people I created memories of my university life. They've been my sidekicks all the while and million of thanks would never be enough. They can never be replaced. XOXO

Saranghae-yo

5. My Ice-cream - Dyna. We don't meet everyday, as much as I meet The Gurlz. Our daily schedule is totally different and we rarely meet in between classes. But she is the one kinda friend that no matter how different our lives can be, she will always be there every time I need her. Even if I try to hide anything from her, she'll know it before I could even hide it. She knows me well till the level that whatever people say about me, she's able to judge whether its true or not without even asking me. Not just about being confident, she's that such of a great friend. She was the first friend to approach me when I'm down (I had a quite tough time adjusting during my pre-medical year) and she was very commited to make sure I'm happy here in Kursk and doing fine. Thanks to such a commitment like that, I manage to pull my way through and graduate med-school. So Ice-cream, here is my huge thanks to you. Love you to bits!

How bestie T got the name .

6. Bestie T. You've made me become a tough cookie and you were always there especially at those crucial moments when I was incapable to handle things alone, like I thought I could. You're level of patience in dealing with the mounting headaches that a person like me can cause, deserve a huge respect. Honestly, that level of patience is like no other!

The Unpredictables, with their undying devoted supporters

7. My Unpredictable team-mates which I heart very much. Even though it has been only 2years but we became like sisters since forever. Also, another great Kelantanese I met over there - Der. No one could ever know how blessed I feel to meet such a great person like you! Also, my other juniors who made it even harder for me to bid good bye to Kursk. Owh, and a special thanks goes for their willingness to bring back my stuffs (a total of 100kg, Der himself brought back almost 50kg). Where else to find a friend like that, huh? I wont trade for life!

Batchmates & groupmates - hope we all will make great doctors!

8. Lastly, to every single person I've met over there, every counter has its own significance and I'm glad that I've met many different people along the way. God bless everyone!

From Homeless to Home Sweet Home

As I reached KL, I bbm-ed a friend and told her I'm back...

"Where are you now?"

"I'm back home"

Then 3 days later I flew off to Kelantan, as we always stay here every summer holidays. Again she asked,

"Are you still in KL? We can go out for iftar."

"Nope, sorry, I'm back home in Kelantan already"

Then she got confused.

"For all my life I've known you, you always say you're at home at different places.

Back in high school, when you go back to Brunei during school break, you'll say - I'll be spending time at home during school break.

When it comes to Raya time, you will again say that you'll celebrate it at home - but then it happens to be in Kelantan.

Then while you were studying in Russia, you'll be confusing me by saying "I'm going back home during this winter hols" - you end up being in Saudi Arabia. 

So, I didn't bother to ask during summer hols, assuming you'll go back to KSA again, but you'll come and text me the "I'm home, let's meet up" thing and I find you being back here in Malaysia. 

Even when you're back in Malaysia I'm still confused when you say you're at home because again it will be two different places - KL and Kota Bharu"

She ended it with a loooooooong sigh.

Then I laughed and realized that, yes, I have been confusing my friends with my location status due to my nomadic life.

To be honest, I dont have a place called "home" like the rest.

I dont have a concrete place to tell my friends "Hey, when you come over to this this city, you can drop by" or "Come, let's have an overnite at my place", simply because I DONT have my own place to call for myself.

My life has always been like this. We always menumpang, as in all the places we live in is temporarily.

Kelantan is where my grandparents live and it is always a must to spend summer holidays here when I'm back from Russia and my parents from Saudi.

Brunei is where my dad worked (and the rest of family stayed there too, except me) till they moved to Saudi after I graduated high school.

KSA @ Saudi is where my dad is currently working at( mom & baby bro lives there too) and because my winter hols and dad's winter hols doesn't fall on the same time, I always had to go back to KSA and spent the time there during winter.

KL, is so many people's home. Ahha. Mainly my elder sister.She currently works here. Of course she doesnt have anything called summer holidays, so we, the ones who were on summer break will always go and visit her over here. In that case, we stay at her place and I call it home. 

It just occured to me that whenever I refer to "home", it doesnt literally mean home.

It means - I'm reunited with my family.

To a person like me, home is not the place, it's the people. So whenever I'm with my family, I'll say I'm at home. Let it be even at the moon or Mars,or Pluto.

Truth is, I don't have a house (homeless), but I do have a home and it is ALWAYS with me (Home sweet Home)

It's Been A While

Yes, it has been a long while since the last time I touched this blog of mine.

I was really having the time of my life, forgive me for that, and then a long list of To-Do's came right after.

I've reached  home (honestly I dont have a "home", I call both Saudi & Malaysia as my "home", in this case I'm referring to Malaysia) safely, and only now I have time to access internet, facebook-ing and what not.

Thanks to all who prayed, wished and congratulated me upon graduating. I appreciate 'em all. You know if I could get back to each and everyone of you personally, I would. I just don't have the luxury of time yet. A promise it is, I'll update about my graduation, Eurotrip with parents and last days in Kursk some time later. As for now, the only update is I'm still alive and kicking (and fasting!).

I would like to wish all the Muslims out there a blessed Ramadhan, let's all strive to get pahala and His blessings this month. May He accepts all our good deeds & intentions and forgive our sins. Ameen.